Having a Difficult Time Posting.....

I knew it would happen....when things get unsettling...I do not want to journal, blog, put it in print.....  She is still in the hospital.  I have been bringing everyone's cards up here so please keep sending them.  It really makes her day!  She has been looking at them over and over again since I brought them about an hour ago.  Thank you. 

We seem to be in a holding pattern...they are going to move her to the cardiac floor to monitor her heart. This morning the doctor mentioned putting in a feeding tube.  Evidently what is happinging is her coumadin to thin her blood for atrial fibullation (prevent her from having a stroke) seems to be too potent now that she isn't eating hardly anything....so they are wanting to put her on asprin but they have to get her blood levels back to normal.  This is what earned us a trip to the ER. 

What they are realizing (which is what we have known) is that she isn't eating and when she does eat she throws up so the meds that she must take orally aren't getting where they need to go and this is effecting her blood pressure and such.  So the easy fix is to put in a feeding tube and give her all of her nutriants and meds this way to support her through this first section of chemo.  Easy but I'd like to see what we can do before we do that...However, that was this morning...as of tonight, she has eaten 4 teaspoons of chicken broth, 5 bites of orange jello and that's it.  She just won't eat.  So really, the feeding tube may become a reality.  We all know how stubborn she can be....she just won't do it.  We had a very frank conversation tonight about the feeding tube and she got upset with me for saying it but like I said...you are being observed for for how well you are or aren't eating.....if you don't eat, they will insist on a feeding tube to continue treatments.    She says the same phrases that Grandma Nancy used to say, though...she'll do it in a minute, she'll have some later and she always tells me what she has eaten.

But her personality is still actually peaceful.  I'm not sure how or why but she is actually taking this extremely well.  Thanks again for the support and prayers.  I had hoped for the whole family to be on church tomorrow but that's not going to happen.  Thankfully our God is not bound by walls in a building......