Where do I start????

I do not want to blog today.  In fact, Bobby had asked if I had posted an update and I said what I always say with bad days....I don't want them to be in print.  But here we go, last night, she did great...we actually had a slumber party of sorts.  They had given her a pill to make her go to the bathroom (number 1 for those inquisitive minds..) so every half hour until about 2 am she had to go to the bathroom.  She was actually getting so good at being around that she was wanting me to teach her how to unplug herself so she wouldn't have to bother me working..not that she was bothering me...but she was up and going.  Around 2 she went to sleep and when she woke up she felt awful, just awful.  She said that she wanted to go walk around the nurses station but we should wait until she felt better.  Her blood pressure was high even for mom and her heart rate was bouncing up and down.  She got up a couple of times to go to the bathroom and the 3rd time, Lilly, her favorite nurse so far, was in with her because I was ordering mom's breakfast..it was about 10 and she thought she should eat.  I turn and see mom hightailing it to her bed dragging her IV pole behind her and then it at first looked like she was having a seizure.  I grabbed her in the front and Lilly in the back and Lilly started yelling for more help.  I'm sure this was only a few minutes but time literally stood still...I was concentrating on holding mom up when the nurse yelled to call a code blue..This is when I snapped into reality and said "is she not breathing?"  I felt for a pulse which she had and I told her to breathe, mom, breathe and slapped her on the cheek...not hard but enough to bring her out of it.  We lifted her to the bed and she was confused as to what had happened.  She remembers that she felt like she was going to faint and she was trying to get to the bed as quick as possible...I tried to explain the lack of logic to her thought process...hello!!!  The next thing that she remembered was seeing my face.....(Kind of reminds me of the promise when we die that we will see Christ face to face...)  They are thinking that her hemoglobin is lower than it should be probably due to the chemo..she has gotten plasma and a blood transfusion.  She's on a halter monitor for her heart and they have mixed up her meds a bit to make them alittle more tolerable.  There is alittle blood in her stool but they are thinking that is from the ulcer surrounding the cancer.  She still has very little pain so the chemo worked well there....needless to say, we were not expectin this.  With chemo, I was expecting her maybe to loose her hair, be nausea and sick but not this. ..not this at all.  The only good news about this is that she is getting  hydrated beyond belief and that should set her up well for the next treatment. She's come out fighting on this one.  It's almost like she needed as much opposition as possible and then she would fight hard!  Thanks for the prayers, cards and phone calls. 

I will be leaving on Wednesday to go back home in order to finish up the semester at the college.  I will be flying back and forth until summer...so Bobby will be posting also....we shall see how he does!