Gloom...

Thanks for all of the encouragement regarding the blog..yes, it probably is very theraputic for me...Be thankful that it doesn't automatically write down my thougths and feelings of the day or it would be quite the jumbled mess....  basically, it is composed of a summary of the day, and if it ends on a good note..it has a good vibe...if it ends on a bad note...a bad vibe.

Well, tonight, when Bobby and I had gone back to the apartment to shower for the night, we got another call from dad saying they had just talked to a doctor and they were concerned about putting in the feeding tube...the last treatment option we were told about...but since her hemoglobin was steadily decreasing..she was actively still bleeding from the cancer in her stomach.  So, while they could put in the feeding tube, there would still be bleeding coming up higher....so, they are going back to the drawing board.  We were called back since the attending would either come back in tonight or tomorrow morning.  (I had actually woke Bobby up and said let's go back around 4:00.  But I called dad and he said mom was better and the doctor had said the feeding tube would happen later in the week.  So we didn't go...and then around 7 we get the call that the GI docs have come in and there is a problem...so we are all waiting to talk with them to find out what the options are now.  It doesn't look good but it didn't look good in the beginning, did it?  When you start off bad....you just stay in various levels of bad.

On a good note, today was my 40th B-day and mom actually got dressed and went down to the cafeteria to eat lunch with us.  She was on a liquids only diet so she had grape juice.  She looked good and we stayed down there for about an hour before the pain got too bad.  Some have said, what a horrible way to spend your birthday, but there is no place that I would rather spend it than with my mom.

I'll post again as soon as we find out the next rabbit they are going to pull out of their hat.